在夜晚听着988 彪民的节目是件极度享受的事。
刚刚听了他说关于 Humans of New York 的故事。其实在面子书常常都有跟进这个网页的故事，每一个照片每一个故事和每一种在生活中会联系到的小感触，只是上几个月忙碌得很少上网，所以忽略了这段有连接性的故事。
话说，这位摄影师在路上遇到这位叫做Vidal 的小男孩，告诉他在生命里对他影响最大的是他的校长，Mrs Lopez。这位校长从来不会因为学生闯祸而开除他们，因为她说过，每一次一有人辍学，监牢里就必须多开间新牢房。有一次她甚至对着每一个学生，告诉他们每一个人的存在价值与意义。
感动的沸腾点，是直到我在HONY 的 page 找回这些故事然后知道他们甚至成功从粉丝里筹得了一笔巨大的款项；是直到读到校长的感言，那些不知让多少人泪如雨下的伤口和奇迹。
“I have something to admit to all of you. Before all of this happened, I was about to give up. I was broken. I felt like typing my resignation. I told my mother: ‘Mom, I don’t think I can do it anymore. Because I don’t think my scholars care. And I don’t think they believe in themselves enough to care. I’m afraid they don’t think they’re good enough.’ And she told me to pray on it. But I told her, ‘I might be too angry to pray.’ And I know this is hard to believe, because you guys have never seen me break. But I was broken. It’s just like when you see your mom break down. You only see your mom cry when she’s been fighting so hard for you and she doesn’t think you care. That’s how I felt. But then a couple nights later I was with my daughter at a Broadway show, and we were waiting for the show to start, and I started to get all these text messages from my teachers and former students. And then I saw Vidal’s face pop up on my screen. And my first thought was that something bad had happened. Because that’s normally the case around here when someone’s photo shows up unexpectedly. And the moment I realized that Vidal had said something nice about me, the usher came over and made me turn off my phone. When intermission came, my daughter said: ‘Mom, we’ve got to find out what’s happening.’ So we went and sat in the car. And I read what Vidal said, and I began to read the comments. And tears started coming down my face. Because even though I always tell you that you matter, up until that moment, I didn’t feel like I mattered.”
看着她，整颗心早已变得很破碎，拥有太多太累太崩溃太想放弃的念头，可是却从来没有在他人面前崩溃过。
看着她，愤怒绝望得连对神祈求的力量都失去了。
有时候人会对一件事的热衷几乎死心。绝望不是因为努力没结果，而是因为觉得不论对着一些人付出了多少努力，那些努力却仿佛没被在乎过，也没有谁愿意去在乎。
最后一句：because even though i always tell you that you matter,up until that moment,i didn't feel like i mattered。
觉得这句话是当中最伤感最真实的话。
一直努力让他人坚信自己的价值，让他们相信至少有你是在乎他们的存在，可是原来却一直觉得自己没有价值，也没有人在乎自己的存在。
破碎的转折点，是因为她，终于感受到这一切是被在乎的。她所说过的每一句话，她所做过的每一件事，原来如此烙印在他人的心中，她终于找到了这一切的价值。
很多时候，努力是必须的，但我们每一个人更需要的，其实只不过是从他人身上给予自己坚信自己的价值。
在“努力”这颗如正在成长的小树，再多加一份珍惜，爱，关怀；如水和阳光的滋润，才能让小树茁壮长大。
最近很喜欢的一首歌。
p/s: 彪民说，自己的价值是自己建立的。
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